not my sanity
but
something else
something even bigger than losing your
marbles
I've lost will, direction/hope
I don't know if I can get it back
its not about me getting older
it's about what I still feel but can't
reach anymore
its about staying in my room for the
whole day and night
it's about the oppressive weight of
depression
I'll call it it DOPEression
and the fire-ant pains in my phantom
brain(s)
I was better once
I thought that I was bad then
now I'm really bad
and I guess that's the lesson of the
day
it can always get worse
lows become lower
I know that things have just as much
capacity to go the other way too
but
I've lost that positivity
also
you were my moon, Miss
and
I miss me
I miss you, Son
All of this and everything
I've lost it
not my sanity
but
something else
something
and everything
Everything and Nothing